Reversing the damage that is caused by my dad's lectures?

Every so often I get the "you are going nowhere in life" lectures. I dread these lectures everyday. Instead of helping me these lectures make me hate myself completely and bring my self esteem down several notches. Nothing seems to help pad the blow of these lectures, I try to please but nothing is good enough. When I do something that makes me feel good my dad doesn't even see this as an accomplishment. Anything I'm passionate about my dad puts down (example animals) ever since I was young I loved animals (I've grown out of stuffed ones, but I love the real ones as much as I have before. At times my dad is like you need to find something else in life you are out growing animals. I hide the books I read and music I listen to because he uses that against me too in lectures. He tells me I take no interest in my field (medicine) cause I'm always talking about politics or animals, then again this is the only stuff that gets his attention, if I talk science he turns away from and acts like he didn't hear anything (I no longer even try to talk to him about medicine cause he doesn't seem to care even though he goes into discussions with my brother). I struggle with meeting people cause I am paranoid that no one likes me cause my dad says I'm emotionally immature and I lack social skills. He rubs it in my face that I don't have looks even though he knows my self esteem is very low (I never talk about my looks). These lectures have created tons of self hatred. I love my dad, but I feel miserable inside and think that there may have been some degree of permanent self esteem damage. What can I do? (talking to him does nothing, last time I did it turned into another lecture).